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Tonight Meliss and I had a chance to sit together and watch Kite Runner. It seemed to stir much emotion and was a little bit hard to watch. Somehow at the end, I still felt as if it were healthy for me to be in touch with a reality that is more real than we can feel in proximity. I’d suggest the movie if you’re feeling okay about having your heart flushed with compassion for people that experience hard things in this life.
We were driving in the car the other day in the valley of a huge terrain of mountains on each side of us. In being a bit lost and without too tight of an agenda, my mind started to wander as we drove on.
“At what mindset or perspective do you feel when you are enjoying life the most?” I asked. “In other words, what is going on in your life when you feel that you’re fully alive and as a result, enjoying life the most?” I was interested in learning about another perspective, because I had an idea that we might differ in this based off of our personalities and way we process things. She said something of the sort, “Well, I think when I’m most at peace and I’m giving of myself more than being focused on myself.”
I think the question is actually rooted in an attempt to better understand myself, and possibly even us as humans in our natural living rhythms and how often we feel as if every day is meaningful, significant, and that we’re fully alive.
For me, I think I feel fully alive when I have intimacy with the person of Jesus. From that, I have a vision and seem to be dreaming big, or in pursuit of something that my heart fully connects with. I’m most enjoying life when I’m giving myself towards a dream of what might look like loving someone else with my life. Usually, it’s not in having tons of free time to fill with what I would choose on a whim, but if it’s full of relationship and hope.
I recently heard a story about a clinic in San Francisco that treats depression. Recently, they’ve had a huge “success” rate and have caught more media than they’re used to. And you know what? I heard that they way they treat depression is by the following: They accept patients with depression and listen to their story as an assessment for entering the program. They then send the patient out to meet with someone else who is struggling with depression. And the amount of healing that takes place has been growing incredibly. There’s evidently something powerful about giving our lives to hope that we see around us.
I’m beginning to think that there’s something about the human soul that feels fully alive, and interestingly enjoys life the most, when we are giving ourselves towards hope, and a dream - by somehow seeing with eyes that envision hope and a dream in even the most commonplace of our daily lives.
The challenge for me, is not getting in the way, actually =) Often I find myself and my needs becoming my concern rather than being sensitive to what the Lord is doing in the people around me. I hope that in light of learning more about myself in this, I might find my heart more affectionate to what stirs up a dream/vision about others than to my own well-being
With the Lord, everything is significant I think, even when we don’t see it. Should we see things His way, I’m not sure what it would look like, but it may look a lot different than what I envision. Though I do believe it’s not being made whole on our own, but being fully alive, and fully satisfied in not needing anything more than knowing Him for ourselves.
I’m thankful for what I have this night. May we carry on with a vision burning in on our hearts…
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